Today is post OP day. Went to play mahjong with classmates. :D Which is a good thing cos I haven't played mahjong for 23490845 years already. But atmosphere wasn't as tensed as I hoped it would be. Ahahaha. But never mind, overall still quite funny. QY keep forgetting to throw out a tile for almost every round, and the rest kept singing and singing and singing. Hahahaha. Damn entertaining people.

But the very sore thing was that I only win 2 or 3 rounds out of 345874 rounds!!! Nabeh... Must be the pink tiles and my rusty skills! So pissed with myself, cannot let this happen again! Argh!! -attempts to pull out hair in tufts-

I saw a pretty dress and a pair of heels that I'm going to get once I have cash! Cash strapped again ): I am amazed how fast money flies out of my pocket. Ugh....... Disgusted at myself.

In conclusion, I am a happy yet annoyed person today. (:< HAHAHAHA.

Comfort food, 4 stars

It's amazing what chocolate and cursing the whole day can do to you. You'll feel like your heavy burden has ebbed out of your system and all you have is sadistic thoughts on what you can do to the asshole that dissed you. Quite self-entertaining, I must say. Thanks to the people who had to listen to my swearing the whole of today, I love you guys! Though I think you all find it amusing -.-

Got my bunny yesterday! Heehee. So damn cute! Though it's less than two months old, it has grown quite fast. The amazing thing is, it's dad is totally black, and it's mum is predominantly black with only whites around the neck and paws, but the bunny is pure white! So cool, must be negative and negative gives you positive :D And it has red eyes while both parents have black. Like, what logic is this? But no one's complaining (:

Baby of the house!

You think I care, but in actual fact I don't give a shit about you. Good riddance fucker, and may I never have the misery of seeing you ever. Loser.

I am downright turned off at how superficial some guys can get.

Pardon me, I haven't been a beauty all my life and it's like only this year that random people online started adding and talking to me. At first it's kind of flattering lah, people commenting on how ok you look and yadda yadda. Made me feel a lil better about myself and not as ugly/fat. At this point I would like to repeat that I haven't been a beauty all my life and I rarely get any compliments on my looks and stuff, so if you're deprived of it you would surely welcome some right. They will say they want to know you better and such, which is ok in my books. But the limit came when some physical stuff were asked. E.g. "What are your vital stats?" and "What is your weight?"

To these people, please FUCK OFF TO HELL.

From a Mr Nice Guy to a Mr I-Am-Concerned-About-Your-Figure Guy. Say what, "Oh, I just want to know you better." BULLSHIT. How can a cup size determine what kind of person you are? Like, oh an A means I'm a boring person, B means I'm quite nice at times, C means I'm a nasty person, D means I'm great in bed? And this is called knowing you better? Yeah, like what kind of curves you have. Sucker.

So, feeling quite pissed and wanting to determine if one of the guys is indeed shallow, I texted him a question on why he even bothered talking to me. The reply was like, "cos you're (enter adjective that describes one physically), that's for sure".

Like, WTH?! So means I gain a couple more inches in my thighs, you will not recognise my existance right?!

BAH. I still believe that the inner beauty is the one that counts, although looks do play some part. But I cannot stand it when some people just use looks as their measuring stick when it comes to knowing someone. And from what I know, good looking people (those that I know of anyway) have rubbish personalities. So there.

I was quite mean to one of them some time ago, and he didn't really talk much to me after that. That's my cousins' advice. But being the nice me and all, I felt really bad and recently (as in, now?) initiated talking to him and such. And now (a few seconds later), I began to regret my decision.

Argh. Now I know why I shouldn't trust or treat people online too well. Oh, it also irks the shit out of me when there are those people who think that I can't live without their presence, and start playing hard to get and stuff. Hello?! I can live perfectly well without the likes of you, perhaps even better! It omits the emotion roller coaster whenever I think I finally meet someone that can really understand me. Yes, I'm the kind who is easily xin dong and flattered and trusts people way to easily. I really need to stop this nonsense right now. Maybe I need kick my portrayed self-esteem up a notch. If not these assholes might think they've found an easy prey and start acting like bastards. I really really really really feel like kicking their dicks and tying it into a knot.

I don't think I'll ever get attached. I don't even know if I want to get attached. I generally lost confidence in guys nowadays.

Currently my emotions are in a muddle. Confused. Angry. Frustrated. Life makes a fool out of me, and then fucks me upside down.

Went to kbox Doreen today! Very shuang, craving finally satisfied!

:D

Lalalah. I'm feeling happy now. But what didn't really pleased me was the bill which totalled up to $45.90. Walau, rip-off lah. Early know we stay in the room and continue singing til dawn. Damn weird, they didn't chase us out even though we overshot the check-out time by about one hour -.- Oh oh, another thing! They only have 2 Mi Lu Bing songs lah, like wth! Lei and Shi Ying. Haha, my chinese name! Ok back to my point. 2 songs only leh!! And they have one whole album out already! I want my So Sad MV! It's such a nice song that parts of it are almost orgasmic. Not that I had one before, it's just to show the extent of greatness of the song.

And although we have picked Wu Ding to sing like a million times, still cannot stop laughing when the MV played. Damn lao pok! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Wu Zong Xian looks very funny, while Landy looks... old and lao pok! Cannot stand it lah, thinking of it just gives me the giggles.

I WANT TO KBOX AGAIN AFTER OP!

Music preference is a very subjective and sensitive issue to me. Thus, I will never ever insult a song if anyone likes it straight in their face, cos it's equivalent to smacking the person on the face (to me at least). I don't know, but I'll feel very hurt and insulted if someone bluntly criticises a song that is of my liking, jokingly or not. It sounds stupid, but I get emotionally attached to what I hear and it kind of like hypnotises me :/ that I can appear in a daze the whole day, just because of a song. Yeah, slow or not, these songs certainly tug my heartstrings, e.g. Lei by Mi Lu Bing ((((: I shall personally smack the heads of people who tell me this is a sucky song.

However, there are some songs that just simply not likable and you deserve to be shot in the head if you hum them in public. They have totally no meaning can! One such song, Bouncy Bouncy Smack Smack by don't-know-who, is damn stupid and somehow, it has been stuck in my head for the whole day already! Pretty annoying ok, makes me feel like laughing whenever I 'hear' it, but to start laughing to myself is a very retarded thing to do, hahaha. The song writer should really pay attention in his song writing class. Pearlyn just told me that they have SIX FREAKING REMIXES of this song in their album. I mean, who even listens to one complete song, let alone SIX?! Madness, I tell you. I think they will make a loss.

Guy: Bouncy bouncy smack smack
I'm gonna get a heart attack
Girl: Bouncy bouncy smack smack
I'm gonna give you a heart attack

and so on...

Yup I nearly got a heart attack alright.

Bouncy bouncy smack smack... HAHAHAHAHAHA

It really sucks to have insufficient cash to spend. ):


Suppose to be doing pw now, but here I am lusting after bags which at the moment I can only, well, lust after. The xiang-sthg-jin one very nice! I like! Subjective though, so I can't tell you to go and die if you disagree. But I wouldn't mind if a someone buys it for me (: you reading this, I know you're a damn nice person and you want to make me happy right! Go on, buy for meeeeeee (: I swear I'll say hello to you every morning instead of shooting you an irritated glance for talking to me so early in the morning. Heh.

Ok, more on less materialistic stuff. I have had enough of self-centred people who only know how to talk about themselves and what they do, how great they are etc etc. Not saying that narssicism is wrong, it just gets very annoying when you just have to share it with the world and expect others to constantly think/talk about it. People have enough stuff to think about without the likes of yours ok! Think that is very selfish, and definitely IRRITATING. The most unbearable ones currently come in two forms (there will be more to come) - those who love talking about their love issues, and those who love talking about academic achievements.

1. Love-affair-talking people
Hello, you have to realise that no one gives a shit about this so-and-so guy/gal you fancy, especially if it's someone I have never even clapped my eyes one. I understand if you want to share with others your 'happiness' or whatever it is called, and give some random facts about him/her so that the person seems more life-like. But please, no more overload of details that makes me know the guy/gal more than I want to. Trust me, there are people's crushes whose favourite food, hair colour, height, waist size, results, pocket money yadda yadda I can recite in my sleep in an Indian accent. This isn't an engaging conversation at all; it just turns people off so bad that you'll get a sinking feeling whenever you see the person come online and fretfully turn your status to appear offline/block the person. (yes the other person can appear offline too, but whatever) This kind of issue dominating the talk will certainly have the other party screaming down the line, "DO YOU THINK I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ________? ALSO NOT MY BEST FRIEND. " Then he/she will proceed to slam the phone down and yank out the telephone wires and of cos, not forgetting to bar off the person's no. from his hp. Ta-dah! Quick way to lose a friend. (or is it only me who thinks so? haha) so people out there who regret their choice of being my friend, please do the above exactly and I swear I will pull out all your hair and stick it to your armpits.

2.Academics-issue-talking people
To clarify the meaning of this: I don't don't like people who do talk about results; that is perfectly fine. What so not fine about this is that there are some people who are a tad insensitive and go around asking people's marks like asking who has completed gp homework. Especially people who have scored rather well asking people whom they know might have a failure lurking somewhere amidst their record. Ego bruising or not, I ask you? And then they give you the "orh" face. I cannot stand that face lor, see already will du lan. Like they're secretly smirking, "Haha, this paper so easy, why I can do they cannot do! Luckily my brain is functioning well, not like some people's." Please lor, if I know I have scored well for a certain paper, I will not go around and ask for people's results. I can promise you that I don't. Cos it will only make the person feel even worse and make the 'asker' look very smug and arrogant. And if I don't want to tell, don't keep asking unless you want me to kick you in the ass. On top of feeling depressed or something, still need to feel annoyed. And some of them are like, "Oh, I scored highest for xx! You must feel happy for me (despite your CMI grades)! Wooo! Congrats to me for not having to scrub toilets like you!" So you expect me to whoop in delight for your sake and momentarily forget about my state? Dream on, sucker. Hate sympathisers too. They rub salt into the wound by pouring sea water over it (constantly reminding you about your shitty grades). Any of you like that to me the next time, I will shave away your eyebrows and draw a U shape on where they used to be. Hmpf. Peeved.

Good thing: 2. only occurs during the post exam period, whereas 1 is all the time -.- oh well luckily not both together or else I will go bonkers.



I digressed too much from pw! And I'm already very tired. Still got hairdressing appointment at 11.30am tomorrow, means must wake up at 9 plus. WHAT THE (read: a virtually impossible task). So, sleep or pw? Sleep, pw, sleep, pw, sleep... yawn. Ok I shall TRY and do the poster for pw by... 10.30am? And check the sponsorship thing asap. Ugh. If not someone will kaopeh me. :/ ALRIGHT I'M GOING TO SLEEP GOOD NIGHT. Anyway, feel so much better now after typing those pent-up frustrations ((:

Thank you for dismissing it as though it didn't take me any effort to get it done.
Thank you for your sheer insensitivity and the failure to even notice it.
Thank you for taking I said as a joke, though it wasn't at all.
Thank you for the lack of understanding when it was my first time and all.





Thank you so very much, ______.

KA. NI. NAAAAAA.

OH JUST FUCK OFF N ROT IN HELL

BROKE BROKE BROKE BROKE BROKE. These 4 days of hols (no paper, haha!) sure did a lot to lighten my wallet. From a fat, un-closable thing to a thin and sorrowful one. ): And thanks to WL, who introduced me to the joys of online shopping, my NETS card will be soon meeting up with the same fate. Double ): oh noooooo.

Still remembered a few years ago, I really detested shopping. As in, reallyyyy cannot stand look at clothes, shoes, bags etc. I'll just stand outside the shop or just walking aimlessly until my friend finish browsing. I especially hated buying shoes, cos need to take out shoes, try, blah blah blah... very time-consuming back then, I thought. And when people squeal, "Eh, this shirt/pants/skirt very nice/cute/cool leh!" I only can muster up a weak grin and go, "Ok lah..." Most of the stuff I had was picked by my mama or given by others. No wonder my fashion sense is like zilch last time. I could probably dig up a couple of photos of me last time, but I figure I might as well save everyone the puke. Nah, not saying my mum's taste is atrocious, but she definitely has a better eye for working clothes (: yup during that time period, I must say I still have money to spare, though not a lot.

Ok, then zoom, a few years past. Pocket money increase is overpowered by increase in spending. Whenever I go out, there will always something that catches my attention and I'll swoon over it and just buy it on impulse, never mind whether I'll ever use it. No more money to spare. This is seriously getting to be a bad habit that is hard to break. ): sigh, why are there so many pretty things in the world ): ): makes me feel like bringing all of them home can! The way I've been spending money nowadays (or at least the past 4 days), is like I grow pots and pots of 10 dollar bills in my room that I have no place to sleep. Shop, shop, shop, shop dao yao pock liao lah.

This is just a reflective entry I have today and hopefully it will make me feel guilty and spend lesser in the days to come (:

KONATAAAAAAA!!!!!!! From Lucky Star!! ((((: Freaking cute and funny can!!!!



If you're still unconvinced, watch this next video clip -








WEEHEEHEE SO ADORABLEEEEEE~



Of course, not forgetting the main cast of the show...


(From left) Kagami Hiiragi, Miyuki Takara, Tsukasa Hiiragi, Konata Izumi





















STILL DUN FASTER GO AND WATCH! TA-TA!

Lost my bloody SIM card!!!!!!!!!

Don't ask me how, it literally flew out of my hand in the car, and ta-dah! Gone for good. ): now need to go and get replacement. -lazy side of me starts whining and persuading me not to leave the chair I'm on now- GAHHHH.

On a positive note, met up with Andrea today ((: Freaking long never see her and talk to her properly lah! Yes Andrea if you see this, you are missed by the great Steph! Went to make contacts and ate dinner. And talked about how ______ simply have lousy fashion sense, haha! What to say, sec school friends are still the best :D Cannot wait for our shopping trip!




Random: I think the Britney craze is back. Kept listening to her songs while mugging for promos (: so yeah, hope you make a great comeback!