Ok I conclude that the jiu wan mahjong tile hanging on my cellphone is really my lucky charm as I have been improving drastically in mahjong ever since its existance, both skill-wise and luck-wise.

:D

More than enough to counter the school blues! Not that there was much to do today. Kind of slacked around in classrooms playing 'goldfish' (some lame card game) with classmates, wasting my youth away. Anyway, back to the mahjong game. Played with A/S, L and C after school today. Kept losing the first few rounds, and as I was starting to get demoralised, I started winning! Muahahaaha. Never won big before til today and I hope that this luck won't deplete before CNY :D Haha in all I was relatively satisfied with my winnings today. Taught me that I got to keep faith no matter how much I'm losing cos perseverance reaps results almost always. Not like someone who keeps exclaiming "Suay ah!"

As I'm sucked back to the reality of school and the approach of A Levels, I feel that I really need someone there to support me, to encourage me and to embrace me when I make mistakes, telling me that all will be fine. The internal stress is quietly building up within, without any sign or so when it'll explode. I need to know that someone cares, and doesn't think that I'm a failure, in case I cannot handle it all by myself. Friends are great, but there is this empty void in me that none can fill up. How many of them are actually willing to put in all their worth to help you all the way? Or even bother to be there when you fall? I would. But what about you reading this?

Oh God, if you can't give me the strength, an understanding guy will do.