tranquil melancholy

It's really surreal but at this point of time, at home, with the weather being scorching hot as usual, I feel about 9 years old again.

I am immersed in the strangely familiar surrounding and atmosphere again, and I recall myself having just taken a nice cool bath, and mum's sitting by the table in the dining room so she can help me prepare for my P3 English CA which I guessed was a few days away. There is slight breeze which helped alleviated the temperatures a little.

Same weather, same place.

And my mood and feelings are tuned back to 10 years ago now. All my major worries - studies, friends, canoe polo, health, hall - just vanished. I feel all so serene and peaceful and what's-that-word, carefree.

But soon it'll be back to reality and I remain this bothered, screwed up person.



If there's a time in life I'd want to stand still, this would be it.