Training camp ended yesterday.

Although it was quite xiong for me, I was thankful for it as it gave me a much needed push from my nua state since I stopped before exams...as well as more time to train. To me this camp was super duper helpful as I could at least see things in a clearer light.

Succintly, I understood the strategy better and what I should work on to improve on my paddling, throwing, stern turn and most importantly, my stamina. Guess it's time to start sorting out things on my own.

No matter how lousy I am, I am not going to give in. If this isn't testing my limits, what is? Though admittedly this is the fittest I have been in my entire life, I cannot accept the fact that this is the best I can do. I would very much love to be better and be good in whatever I have started. If not there isn't a point in doing it, right? Okay paddling fast and throwing accurately would be my goal for now.

I know it must be very boring to see me type all these thoughts on canoe polo entry after entry, but I believe that the best person to motivate me is myself. And I need to see them in black and white. Cos I need someone to push me hard whenever I feel like giving up, to constantly remind me to keep the ultimate goal in sight, to not show me the easy way out... speaking of which I get absolutely annoyed whenever people tell me it's okay if I can't do it cos after all, I have never played sports before from primary school all the way til now blah blah blah. That is not a fucking excuse man! So what if I hadn't done it before? Do people know? Do people care? All they can see now is, oh she's playing canoe polo. Therefore I cannot loosen the grip I have on myself and should chiong full steam ahead. Failure is not an option.

Progress seems very slow now, but at least it is progress. Need to buck up more. Mind over body, mind over body.

Now I always think twice before I put food in my tummy cos I keep thinking of the extra weight I need to carry while exercising! -.- Appetite killer I swear. Zomg I am damn lazy teehee.

Anyway I can't believe half my holidays are gone already! This has got to be the most packed holidays I have ever had. I cannot even recall the last time I went out shopping or doing some leisure activity aside from today. First week: Taiwan trip; second week: Empower U; this week: training camp. And results are going to be out! Super not looking forward to it at all. :(

Looking forward to tomorrow though! Meeting the MC people for a chillax session at East Coast to talk cock. :D My favourite haha! And maybe prawning. We'll see how it goes. Hope it will be fun! And my wish is to see Yichin drunk HHAHAHAHAHAHHH :P

Anyway I'm dead tired now and I got to wake up early to meet Wanny for throwing ball session tomorrow! So good night everyone, lovesss and merry christmas! :)