new low

I don't know why but I feel quite shitty after today's training...

Do you know how it feels like to want to do something so much but you just can't? I do.
To top it off, I think I might be down with a flu.

I really like the sport, can't you just let me be good at it. I don't see my efforts paying off. And it is taking a toil on my self-confidence.


I want to be happy.