Competition's over! Not in the top 3. Oh well, I wouldn't exactly say that I'm happy but I'm not sad either. I am just grateful that there's something to surpress the potential swell of the ego and that I have for the first time received constructive criticism on something I have not noticed before. I mean, who wants to listen to compliments all the time right, how to improve like that. So yeah, going to work on it and become better muahahahaha.
And oh I wish people would stop expecting me to be sad! Very weird for me to handle lor, like when I go, "but I'm not sad" people just give me the look that plainly says "don't act act lah we know you must be bleeding inside" but they give me the falsely convinced look anyway. -_-
Really man, why should I be sad? I entered with nothing, but I still came back with something, so I've in fact nothing to lose. Anyway I'm incredibly thankful for this little exposure already as it helped me affirm my interest in it and showed how supportive/nice some people can be. I've more or less learnt to count on my blessings after entering university (saw the 10th percentile for MSE and wtf I'm probably like the 1 percentile wtfwtf).
If you really want to know what's making me moodless it's my math test tomorrow which I am nowhere near halfway through the notes yet.
Yup so I'm looking forward to more singing opportunities in the future and hope I can learn to loosen up on stage! I don't doubt my abilities. So there.
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