I rejected him yesterday.

And today, all my resolve dissolved. Too quickly.



Me: Am I deluded?
E: Kind of.



Curse me. Slap me. Kick me. Wake me up. Cos I still can't see anything.

I am just afraid I will disappoint the people who care a lot for me and whose advice I have seeked for. He is like a sort of guilty pleasure. An extremely guilty pleasure. And I will ultimately lose. But nothing's confirmed until it happens. And it might be too late.

Aah well. Mind's a muddle, as usual. And I thought being unloved was worse. Let's just see how next Friday goes.



Man, I should be mourning about more serious stuff like the deaths of the people in the overturned dragonboat (my condolences to your teacher, Andrea) instead of these relatively mundane matters of the heart. No wonder I'm struggling for GP.

Anyway, Good Charlotte's Break Apart Her Heart is the song I'm currently trying to draw inspiration from. Cos of my character - I admit - I am too submissive. And I need to harden my heart lest anything unfortunate happens.




Victims of Love - Good Charlotte

Everybody’s hurt somebody before
Everybody’s been hurt by somebody before
You can change, but you’ll always come back for more
It’s a game and we're all just victims of love


This makes me feel better about the rejection part, as I was feeling rather bad. Ha. It was all for nought in the end.

Speaking of Good Charlotte, their Good Morning Revival is the best English album I've ever heard in a long while. It's super super super super super value for money, so I suggest everyone should to grab a copy of their album right now!

Ok the one I'm listening to belongs to TP :/





Something random. But I've mentioned this song before.

Yawn. I shall continue watching my Romantic Princess. Toodles!


What an exciting twist of emotions in a matter of a few hours.