Stuff that happened today made me waver my decision. It then hit me that communication between two people is really the most vital thing, and I cannot get it from supposed someone(s). Just, awkward silences and small talk. Really, I shouldn't have to be thinking about what to talk about. Racking my brains for subjects to talk about. Totally no chemistry at all.

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Maybe what he said about our chemistry is right. Used to dismiss it as trash, just a something to get into my good books. But now with interaction from other beings, I find that there isn't another person I can just talk like I have known him for ages, and with no subject off limits. Chemistry? I guess so. But his openness is starting to freak me out. Like, seriously. I mean, who talks about ___ so openly until I was -.-", and I have a high tolerance for it lor.

Gah, must stop thinking about it, dumbass! Get a grip of yourself. And let nature take its course.

Sorry for the boringness of all these. But no one forced you to read it.

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