Went to ECP to cycle with I, G and TP today. I admit I wasn't feeling the best of all days, and I pretty much acted like a prig. ): sorry guys! I just had some fucking irritating issues to settle, and it has clouded my thoughts. Like, stuff that really irritates the shit out of me.

Cycling alone does wonders. Made me ponder and have some time to think about everything. Speed, on the other hand, makes my legs ache and hence block any of these unpleasant thoughts from forming. So throughout the whole journey back I keep having my thoughts switching on and off, rather like a lightbulb. Which is good cos I didn't dwell long enough at a particular issue to make me feel emo and spoil my day.

Speaking of emo, I am really thankful to E and TP, especially E, who have knocked me to my senses. No, I will not give in to mind games and I will not feel guilty for what I've said. That's what he wants, ain't it? I WILL NEVER LOSE, COS I HATE LOSING. Really grateful for you guys to take time to listen to my problems and help me think of what to do. It's my honour to know two great people who can share my burden and not whine about it. I love you guys, seriously. Oh, just joking, hahaha, but I'm sure you get what I mean.

To a certain someone: I am sorry to have to say such stuff, but I mean it. It would be the best thing to do. But your intentions have caused me more stress than you could have imagined. And your messages; I don't know if they're your little tricks or what, to make me feel this way. Anyway, most of it was assumption from your part. I certainly didn't say anything about it. To speak the truth, I don't feel anything about it. And from now, I will not be as soft-hearted and mince my words, cos it seems to be exploited to its fullest advantage. I think you're nice, but you're starting to freak me out, hence my wild thoughts. I haven't even formed a proper impression of you, how can I confirm my feelings? I don't know if you are the one, but judging from all these that happened, I seriously doubt so. But nevertheless, I still need you to give me more time, to see if you are indeed the one I'm looking for.

Oh no my tone seems to be varying at this point of time -but who gives a shit. Just get my point. Aah please say you understand what I'm saying now.



Don't mind me; mixed emotions now. Hope whatever I typed made sense.